"I’m trying to keep a broad focus at this point in my life, which often actually requires that I narrow in on myself. "

A Bored Documentation

Writing because I’m bored and because I’ve stayed away from this site for maybe a bit too long. There’ve been a few things come up over the past few weeks that I’ve chosen to internalize, rather than express, but I’m thinking it may be time to do that now – if for no other reason that document that I’ve acknowledged them:

1. I’m so damn good at caring far too much about what others think about me. It’s like wherever I go I can feel judgmental eyes following. Debatable whether that stems from deep-seated insecurity or a far-too-common variety of narcissism.
2. It’s amazing communing with the people who have known you longest. It’s as if you can express yourself more freely and honestly without having to say as much because everyone you’re speaking with already knows anything that would possibly need to be said.

I’m trying to keep a broad focus at this point in my life, which often actually requires that I narrow in on myself. That’s all outrageously vague but I’m not sure how to express any of what I’ve said here in more specific terms right now, maybe next time.