Cocooned Up
I just witnessed someone doing what I want to do with this site a lot better than I’m doing it and it pissed me off. Facebook announcements can be pretty damning in that way.
Senior year has been pretty loose, and it’s only going to get looser. I have a lot of time on my hands, my classes aren’t as challenging anymore, and the grades don’t mean as much as they used to. The meager amount of energy I do have to exert goes into finding a job, and for some reason I’m not as stressed about that as I probably should be given I’ve put all of my eggs into a basket no one has given to me yet.
I love the freedom of not having my time tethered to any one thing in particular. There’s rarely anywhere I have to be, and when there is it kind of feels like an affront. I love that my time is my own, but in true human form I’ve taken advantage of that and ultimately wasted a lot of productivity, a lot of inspiration, and if nothing else just a lot of damn time. To err is Nadia.
The success of Picking Crowns depends on me writing, but also on me actively promoting it which I’ve never been bold enough to do (perpetually afraid of being seen as some influencer poser). I’m still not bold enough, either – it’s too warm and cozy in my cocoon of status quo. But I think my ideas have potential and this space has potential and I’ve never stopped wanting to make something more of it.
Issa Rae said something about networking laterally instead of vertically, that there’s enough talent and ability right next to us among our peers. If I want my craft to be good I have to work at my craft. If I want Picking Crowns to be impactful I may need to do some of that lateral networking. So, I won’t be mad at the Facebook announcement and the friend who made it because she’s doing something incredible and if nothing else it was a much-needed kick in the butt. Facebook announcements can be pretty affective in that way.